It's been like years since the last time I have blogged. I don't know that I have many catchy or wise things to say. Though I do believe that I feel a pull to update whoever wants to catch up.
Dec. 2010- Wrapped up the last Fall semester of my college career and began studying for the Praxis exam and my comprehensive exams religiously. This studying unfortunately lasted for months. Oh, and I started dating a boy. A really good one :) He, Stephanie and all of the Housewives of the major cities in America got me through that horrific period.
Jan. 2011- I went to Nashville often and landed a job in the midst of those trips! I also passed the Praxis this month. Praise the Lord.
Feb. 2011- I have a sweetheart this Valentine's Day! I went to Nashville a lot this month, too, before my comprehensive exams on the 24th and 25th.
March 2011- Passed most of my comps, but had to go to orals for one section of it. EW. Not fun- but I survived! For Spring Break I went to Seattle with the CSC to be homeless. It was an awesome adventure. Oh, and I found an apartment toward the end of the month!
April-May 2011- Finishing everything and trying to get it all in line :)
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Now. Now things are strange. At this very moment I don't know what to do with myself, except think about what the past 24 years have been like and then freak out because I know the next half of my life will be completely different. I realized today that I have been in school, doing homework and taking tests, for the past 18 years. Straight. 18 years straight. Wow. For the past 6 years, I have been building the foundation of who I want to be.
Thoughts come rushing into my head about the road that has brought me to today. I think about where everything started- I was a lost girl who met some great people. The great people introduced me to God and became my closest friends. People that will always be close to my heart. With them I had my ups and downs, interwoven with compromising relationships (platonic and romantic), wild moments, embarrassing moments, emotional breakdowns, and emotional breakthroughs. I went through some gnarly situations and lost some friends. I am ok with that though, because God used these situations to teach me lessons, strengthen me and introduce me to some of the main roles in my life. On this journey God also exposed me to His beauty, He introduced me to His people in many parts of the world, in many different stages of life. He molded the way I look at my brothers and sisters.
Through the poor choices I made came pain and through that pain God provided encouragement and support. This was a recurring theme, and still is. For what I felt like I was missing in my life, my friends/mentors provided. For what I felt like needed to change at home, it has progressively gotten better. On several occasions I experienced the "perfect moments." You know, the moments where there is nothing you could change to make it better. Like having a dinner with a good friend on the porch of a sweet restaurant the week of finals, the weather is warm and you're wearing a dress, it's almost sunset and your wine suits the occasion.
I learned so many things. I saw so who I want to be in many bits and pieces of the ones He has put in my path. From them I learned I want to be quiet (let's remember these are woks in progress), contemplative, wise, considerate, compassionate, empathetic, strong, smart, healthy, funny, energetic, innocent, satisfied, convicted, convinced, honest, sincere, grateful and full of love.
My heart is now overwhelmed- the summation of my college career/foundation-building-stage is beautiful. I am sad, so sad to leave it. From what I understand the only constant in life is change. But, I can say that I am eternally grateful that my heart is this full to the brim at the ending of this crazy beautiful chapter.
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